Ear problem

Uh. Something is in my ear. Well, mostly wax i guess. And water after showering this morning. But it is a very bad combination. And picking in my ear is also not a good idea. So of course i had to do it, making it all stick even harder. Guess i need to check the farmacy tomorrow for something against it. Can`t meet spring and bird songs with a partly deaf ear. The noise from the hard drive isn´t so bad now, though.

So, this is what

Sometimes life feels like a puzzle with lot`s of pieces that is supposed to fell into place somewhere on the board. Some are easy, big and with only one possible place. But others are smaller or have a confusing form which doesn`t quite fit anywhere. Sometimes nothing fits. Sometime the pieces change shape during the game, which makes this a strange puzzle indeed. You twist and turn trying to make sense of it all. And while other puzzles are being laid around you, you are still playing with your pieces. I`m not sure, but there might even be a deadline for finishing the puzzle to enter the next level. Somewhere on the road the rules got lost, or i wasn`t in class when they was read out. Which is a pity, since i didn`t really miss many classes.

Where am i going with this? Maybe it`s just one of those early spring nights with hardly any sounds outside. Which gives plenty of possibilities for thoughts inside. Thoughts about past and present. Possibilities lost and challenges that must be met. About decisions needed to be taken. And figuring out a reason for why and how and who and when. And then suddenly everything feels so distant, and you just sit and feel on some tiredness that have been laying there for some time. And you end up writing a blog entry in code. And let the pieces lay for awhile longer.

I think i will just sit here and never go out again. Need vitamines.