Sometimes life feels like a puzzle with lot`s of pieces that is supposed to fell into place somewhere on the board. Some are easy, big and with only one possible place. But others are smaller or have a confusing form which doesn`t quite fit anywhere. Sometimes nothing fits. Sometime the pieces change shape during the game, which makes this a strange puzzle indeed. You twist and turn trying to make sense of it all. And while other puzzles are being laid around you, you are still playing with your pieces. I`m not sure, but there might even be a deadline for finishing the puzzle to enter the next level. Somewhere on the road the rules got lost, or i wasn`t in class when they was read out. Which is a pity, since i didn`t really miss many classes.
Where am i going with this? Maybe it`s just one of those early spring nights with hardly any sounds outside. Which gives plenty of possibilities for thoughts inside. Thoughts about past and present. Possibilities lost and challenges that must be met. About decisions needed to be taken. And figuring out a reason for why and how and who and when. And then suddenly everything feels so distant, and you just sit and feel on some tiredness that have been laying there for some time. And you end up writing a blog entry in code. And let the pieces lay for awhile longer.
I think i will just sit here and never go out again. Need vitamines.
Have you read the unbearable lightness of being? (Tilværelsens uutholdelige letthet) It has some interesting thoughts about time and choice, and possibly also the big puzzle of life – we’ll never be able to tell if the path we chose was the right one, because we’ll never be able to make the same choices twice.
I’m not sure what the moral of the story is, to just kick back and relax and enjoy life no matter what, or if it’s saying that everything is just as hopeless as one might think, but still it’s kind off a good read.
And I don’t think anyone has control over their puzzle.